yeah....it's one of those blog entries

And so the time has come for me to discuss something on this blog that I have not yet covered. it is something that I had decided to not make common in my blogging, but I feel as though it is something that can be addressed from time to time. This topic is in fact the status of my love life. Which, for those of you who are not aware, is non-existent.

But today I think I realized why it is in fact non-existent.....I am invisible to the male eye. I believe that Guys see right through me to the girl at the next table, or a good friend sitting right next to me. I am just never an option.

I've often wondered if this is my fault, or if it's just the way things are for me? Do I come off as stand-offish, do I put out a vibe? This really is not my intention.
I feel like the girl on "My Big Fat Greek Wedding," (yes Owens, a movie reference) Not the confident one who makes a life for herself and stands upright when she walks down the street, but the one who is quite, silent, sinks into the background and often is overlooked.

Hmmmm this sounds kind of sad and pathetic but I feel as though it is best to be honest with yourself at both your high and low points. And while in no way do I think that confidence should come from how much interest the opposite sex has in you, One can not escape that human desire to be desired....make sense? And so this is me confronting that desire to be desired, and realizing, that I haven't seen it in anyone for a long time......and blaming it on my invisibility...ha....