And now...

to be hypocritical.

I posted a few days ago about how I was amazed at the willingness we have to unleash our deepest thoughts into the empty void of the internet instead of sharing those thoughts with people face to face. With that being said, I am now going to unleash into the void a thought of mine, hypocritical, yes, a step in the right direction, hopefully....

The comments that I received on the post, that this turn in society is not only amazing but confusing/frustrating and that vulnerabilty might be at the core of this phenomenon are all thoughts that I can agree with, especially the vulnerability.

In going through this CPE program I am learning what it means to address that which is unknown to my concious mind and dig deep into my past in order to reveal the source as to why I have decided to bury some of the emotions and experiences of my past. Hang in here with me, this will come pack to the original topic. In doing so, I have breeched a topic that many shy away from becasue as a culture we have been taught to eliminate this emotion from our lives at all cost and that is the emotion of fear.

Why do we fear? Why do we allow ourselves to fall prey to the myth of dire consequences, that understanding that tells us, should we fail, should we reveal our true selves, should we act in a way that is not expected, should we confront a person, should we be happy, should we face death at all (in terms of personally or the death of loved ones) we will create an environment around ourselves that will bring about dire consequences! The absolute worst situation in life will follow.....but what if that's not true, then we've lived a life of fear that was hindered by this overwhelming emotion and limited the fullness of life one could experience.


Now I will acknowledge that how fear plays out in my life is more than likely not the same for you (a collective you). But the principle is there, the control fear has on our lives can infiltrate into some of the most important aspects of our lives, like relationships. And it seems like it can or is happening on a cultural level but we don't see it because it has become the norm. And we've come full circle back to the blog/vulnerability issue. Have we let fear consume us so much that we resort to talking to a computer instead of a face? It seems that fear is at the center of vulnerability. By walking up to a person and offering up our thoughts and opinions about life we are opening ourselves to all sorts of possible negative reactions, but we are also making way for positive reactions as well. Is the possibility of a negative reaction worth never giving an optimistic outlook on life a chance? Is life all about the dire consequences? Should we become vulnerable, will we die? probably not. Could we gain from opening ourselves up to people instead of our blog post? it is a very real possibility.

Now I am not saying that blogs should be eradicated from the face of the earth. I feel as though they are a creative outlet, a way for people to express themselves to get thoughts out in the public for discussion.....but when they take the place of open, honest interaction between human beings, I think that is a problem. As a culture i believe it is time for us to start standing up to fear, to not let it dominate our lives. To say to each other, I will risk sharing my thoughts and my words with you to your face because I value myself as a person and I trust humanity with who I am. When we think of it now, it seems like a lost cause, humanity will never be trustworthy as a collective whole. But we will never see a change until we start to change and that change will come when individuals begin to risk and open up to the world around them. I am in no way saying that I am there...I mean look at me, I'm revealing all of this through a blog post....Hypocrity at its finest! But it is something that I would like to move towards so that one day it will be my truth. The fact is when it's all said and done, God will be God, and that truth is greater than any feeling of fear we will ever experience.

So.....in taking a step in the direction of fearlessness and open communication.....

"Humanity, I value myself, and I trust you with who I am, the thoughts that I think and the words that I say."

And I challenge the great masses who read my blog to bring up the issues that I mention in this blog or issues that are important to you the next time we meet. You do not have to be afraid.