nesting....me?...really?

I don't really know what this post is about, so you might have to bear with me...


I think in the past few days I've realized just how important family is to me. There have been events in life recently that have led up to this realization. One of the major ones of course being the birth of a new baby. That's right! My big brother had a little girl, Isabella Grace. SHe might be the cutest baby known to humanity!! In fact I know she is!!! However the sad thing is, she's in Arizona along with my brother and sister-in-law (rightfully so), and I miss them.

Two weekends ago I saw my parents for the first time in like month and it was so nice to just be around them. They have been such a source of strength andwisdom for me. Even though they are not too far away, it seems sometimes that they might as well be on the other side of the earth. schedules are so busy that visiting with them is rare...and I miss them.


This past week I saw two aunts, one from each side of the fmaily, and a couple of cousins. I had forgotten how much I liked them, and enjoyed chatting with all of them. I usually see them once or twice a year, but more and more, even those visits seem less and less. It seems like ever getting to know them is becoming more and more of a distant dream, it makes me sad....and I miss them.....

I saw a mom and a little girl today. The little girl was sitting on the mom's lap eating a snack while the mom was redoing the little girl's hair. It made me cringe with envy. I wanted so badly to be that mom with the little girl, fixing her hair that had fallen out of place while running around like a mad person.


All of this to say, I don't understand why God exposes us to things, or shows us life from a different point of view. I don't konw why he changes the desires of our hearts, or if he is even is the one that changes those desires. But I know that mine are changing....I konw that my desire to be footloose and fancy free are slowly dwindling into the background. Maybe it's age that releases your maternal instinct....maybe it's a change in heart that makes you more sensitive to family and loved ones, whatever it is...it's happening, whether I want it to or not....